- yogurt & string cheese
- protein shake made with water and 1/2 banana (blech! rethinking this one....)
- lean cuisine w/ carrot sticks
- cottage cheese w/ apple
- Omelet made with veggies, a little cheese, whole wheat toast w/ honey
- fruit and yogurt shake made with carb master yogurt
The upper body workout was great! I felt it but I loved that Leslie pushed me a little. When I got there this morning I felt sick to my stomach, but by the time I left I actually felt better! The "old me" would have skipped out on working out and gone back to bed. It felt good to be rewarded by feeling better. It was so helpful to have Leslie working through the moves with me - I loved it.
How I'm feeling:
Gross from the shake I just choked down....but other than that - good. I had a few moments last night where I fell apart and said "I can't do it it all." Those moments are hard for me. Not just worrying about the exercise, eating right - but for me it's more of the every day things that are hard for me to keep up with. And adding these new changes on top of it all is hard for me. I no longer have my vices (junk food/excessive soda pop) to fall back on and that's hard. I'm needing to find new ways to "cope". Even last night when I was upset I was proud of myself though for not having another Diet Dr Pepper even though it might have taken the edge off a bit :).
Gratitudes:
Organization. That doesn't mean I'm organized right now - but I'm grateful that I have been @ other times in my life - so I know it's possible again.
Preschool - I'm so grateful my son went back to preschool today after the Christmas break. I love him, but it's nice to have someone else watching him for a couple hours a week. And tomorrow my youngest has school too. We might be getting back to a routine!
Connections - I'm so grateful for the connections I have in life with people, with knowledge and with goodness.
Whole wheat toast with honey sounds YUM! Looks like you are doing great! Diet Dr. Pepper used to be my weakness too. Thanks for your inspiration today!
ReplyDeleteI've felt this sooo many time! I get stressed, my feelings get hurt, I have too much to do and too little time, the money is tighter than I like AND...I turn to food to numb the pain so I don't have to deal with the real issue. What I thought was so great about doing this program is that I started to identify with what the real issue was. It wasn't that I was a pig (cause that's what I thought). It was because I was ducking out of having honest conversations with myself, God, and my family. I thought I was helping by pretending I was "fine" but I was killing me and making everyone else pay! Now I am more aware. I still get grouchy, stressed and annoyed but I quickly identify my "need" to binge for what it is--my inability to face a problem. Now I know there is something bigger at play than me "lacking will-power and being a pig".
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