Assignment 1

Assignment #1

Assignment one is such a powerful opportunity to take an honest look at where I stand. If I were going to acquire a business I would want to know as much about it as possible before I set goals of where to take it. I would want to know what assets it had, how much momentum it had, what its key strengths were, where it was falling short, how much debt it had, the attitude and morale of the employees. Just as I would do that for a business, I need to do that for myself as well. That is the power of assignment one. Take an honest and thorough look at who I am right now: what great things I have going, what attitude I approach my days with, how much debt I have, what areas I am falling short in, what state is my physical health in, am I in tune spiritually, am I living consistent to my core values, how my relationships look and feel, do I feel stress and anxiety and what are they caused from, do I sleep well at night, do I serve those around me with no thought of reward, and am I doing the things in my life that inspire me!

Bill says that our health is like working with wet cement. We can do a ton to mold it, but as time goes by the cement gets more rigid and more difficult to work with. Our health is like that too. In most cases we can prevent bone lose, high cholesterol, diabetes, and heart disease, but the longer we wait, neglect, and abuse ourselves the more damage (possibly permanent) is done.

You would never own a business that you didn’t stop every few months and assess how it is doing and where it is going and we should do that with ourselves too! I would guess that most people never do this and like a neglected business, soon find themselves in emotional and physical bankruptcy. I know that is how I was feeling in Jan. of last year and was shocked and disappointed in myself when I finally stopped and took a deep, honest look at where I stood. I was regretting the choice I made to be married young, wondering if I made a mistake by having so many children, blaming other people and circumstances for my health, and contemplating running away. I was emotionally binge eating, I was eating way too much. I wasn’t eating nourishing food. I wasn’t exercising. My body fat was too high. My energy was shaky and jittery. I had little patience for my children. I was detaching myself from my friends. My house was a wreck and I cared but couldn’t find the focused energy to do anything about it. I felt depression and anxiety. I was spending too much money. I wasn’t doing the things that I used to love. I didn’t want my husband to see me without clothes on let alone touch me. I had turned from my relationship to God because I knew I was disappointing Him and didn’t want to pray. I was yelling at my children too frequently or completely ignoring them. These things hurt to see. They REALLY hurt, but it was in the hurting that made all the difference. By internalizing the pain, I knew that not changing would hurt WAY MORE! That moment set the foundation for my transformation. After I did assignment 1, there was no food or workout that was going to keep me in that pain. I knew that I didn’t want to feel that way anymore. As soon as I was done looking at myself honestly, I was ready to let it go. It was so freeing not to defend my lower self any longer. It was freeing to say that WAS me, but I’m CHOOSING to be different.

Bill also says that most people would rather go through an 8 month tax audit then take a one hour audit of themselves. It is painful. It is disappointing. It will definitely be emotional because we were made to be free. Free of our fears, addictions, and lowest level voices and habits. We weren’t made to wallow out our days on this earth, but to shine brightly not only as an example of health, but as an example of peace, service, and love! To live as He did!

Please spend the time you need to look deeply at all areas of your life like you would a business. Decide now what works for you and what doesn’t and set the foundation for a healthier and more peaceful you!

All my love, Leslie